Memento Mori

And if this is all we have
This moment in the vast darkness of time
Just here
Just now
What can we do but live
Freely, excruciatingly, completely
To sacrifice a single experience
Lurid, technicolor, frail, fleeting affair of the senses
For promises of something next
A next that may be heaven
But may just as well be a comfort in the night
A testament to the constant of human self importance
When I take my last breath, whenever that moment comes
As darkness clouds these eyes for the last time
To have but an instant of regret, doubt, the thought of what might have been
All else aside would be the total failure of this life
This precious collision of chemistry and philosophy
Brilliance however accidental and pervasive ignorance
If there is a day when I will be judged
Judged for my deeds, my thoughts, my everything that has colored these days as mine
My only defence will be
Surely having given us life your intention was for us to live
I have
I am
I will continue
Without apology
Choosing decidedly to burn in the next should there be one than miss a moment of now