Stranger

Every day in every way I grow
Stranger
In this body stranger than the mind it does not know
Soul deed and countenance so wholly out of tune
A glimmer in a mirror glimpsed so utterly askew
Whose is this face, whose are these thoughts, in whose mind do they belong
For mine is surely not the one from whence these wild things come
Who is this person growing here wild in her cage
Why is this person sentenced here, apathy her stage
A stage a cage a half filled page familiar yet unknown
How is it that I am here, so very far from home
A place I don’t remember well, perhaps one I’ve never known
But home is more than place and time
And I am more than she
A girl who grows within a cage
It’s walls she cannot see

Birthday

22 years ago today I took my very first breath
And in those cold fluorescent lights my innocence was left
I said goodbye adieu farewell, I bid thee on thy way
I said goodbye to my reason why
It was then I lost my way
I stumble tumble wanderlust no meaning
A stray
A way to go from now to then
Movement rules the day
Always motion rarely purpose
Is there no shelter for this storm
A wondrous wild child I so disparate from the norm
Apologies apologies to all they must be said
For dreams and schemes unyielding needs
Never knowing whimsies dead
They never said that in this place reason rules the day
A life of facts and figures now lies before me every way
No matter where I walk
No matter where I run
Normal normal everywhere blotting out my sun
What happened to my rainbows to the magnificence of snow
What happened in these years, to wonder I must know
Wonder wonder everyday where is it I belong
Where can I fly in fancy wild beyond close minded scorn
Beyond the sensible seasoned minds who tell me to mature
Beyond the banks, those borrowing men who tell me they need more
So many years since first I saw, still waiting, yet to see
And on this eve of my very first day
No clarity still for me